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oh well..

the day have finally come...

which i didnt wanted to faced it very much..

guess... i cant run away from it..

guess.. i really have forgotten a promise to myself which i had made from the start..

is to not to fall into in too deep..

i knew it all along.. that his heart wasn't all into mi..

all these while..

i am just trying to cheat myself..

cheat until i am too immersed into my own lies...

i know there is my place in his heart..

but the placing is not strong i guess..

until yst..

i decided to pull back most of the feelings...

trying to suppress all of it..

coz.. i noe the situation is different now..

its nt the same anymore...

its difficult... but i knew i had to do it so that the hurt would be minimize when the worst situation happen..

for now... i will wait for his decision..

i will respect the decision watever it is..

if he is happy.. i dun mind to suffer all by myself..

Sry for everything..

and last but not least.. I love u...

shall wait patiently for the ans..

ps: guys... i'm fine.. pls dun ask mi anything... dun wry ok? thx..

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i didnt regret my decision being with him at all in the first place...

honestly...

i really dun want to loose him..

really...

will i walk alone through this path or he will walk together with mi?

i can't do anything at all but to wait now...

i am indeed silly am i??

haha...

there is one song.. really describe wat i thinking rite now..

the feeling when i'm holding ur hand..

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我 想带你骑单车
我 想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧 唱着歌 一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你 靠着我的肩膀
你 在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
爱上你 你爱我
想 简~简~单~单~ 爱
想 简~简~单~单~ 爱

true indeed..

haha..

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 3:38 PM.